hestia_caliga

Megan's trial starts Thursday. I have been perpetually sick at my stomach since Monday morning. I can't help but feel I failed somewhere. The girl seemed perfectly normal growing up, then I get a hold of her and she becomes Megan the killer. I still don't have all my memories back. Maybe I'll never have them. Maybe I'll never know what all she did to me.

My therapist says I must stop blaming myself for Megan's obvious mental issues. How can I not? The most galling part is that I am an Auror, and she got the drop on me. I thought I could trust her. I obviously should not have. It calls into question a lot of my decisions. What if I was wrong before? What if I was wrong before and it cost others their lives and I don't even know it?

Working through my lunch today. I'd only see anything I ate again.